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The waiting is the hardest

No actually, it isn’t… Chemo cycle 1 of 6 started last Friday 9/9. I’m at Day 5 (infusion is day 1). It’s not as terrible as I’d expected, but it’s not great either. I did expect the worst. I was most scared of the nausea/vomiting because I’ve had those bad in the past. So far, […]

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There is a plan

I made a flowchart of sorts for my treatment, because, well, it’s me. By August 26 officially (or even before that, unofficially), I knew what the treatment plan was going to be for my cancer. Nothing was going to be unprecedented, or out of the ordinary. I knew we would start with neoadjuvant therapy for […]

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No one can do this alone

I’m not. You’re here. When friends learn about my diagnosis, one of the most common first things said in reply is “I’m here for you.” I’ve said the same thing myself when in the same situation even as, often, I’m not quite sure how to be there exactly. The words seem trite. Now that I […]